Just some pictures for now

well here are just a few that I have so far still doing alot of work and trying to make it feel more like home. The meeting w/ the bank well and I cant wait til its all over and it is in my name. I will post more pics are we go along.

This is just the beginning....

When God first started forming the heavens and the earth I wonder what he was thinking? Do you think that he knew what he was doing before he began? I do, why? because he created everything so perfect each and everything has its purpose with out that how would or could we survive. Just like us he created us in his own image why do you think he did that? I think he did so in order for us to understand what Jesus went through as a person of flesh, blood & feelings. That is one of my opinions of many but I do often wonder about these things, not to dismiss our God but to better understand him and his way of thinking. Maybe we're not to second guess his reasons for anything and I don't feel that I am second guessing him (Just wondering)
I love my God and I am very thankful for all that he has given us

Somethings seems to be coming together

While others feels like it crashing down on you I'm at the crashing point now....We moved into this wonderful house that I'm trying to buy and just when I think I have all my ducks in a row one wants to stay away from the goal. Credit is like your heart beat it's what makes your lifestyle Good, Alright or just plain Poor. I have learn through the years that nothing is free in this world, not that I actually thought that way but it seemed that I was letting somethings slide while doing other things that I shouldn't have been doing, but I guess that's where the old saying comes in "learn the hard way"
Sometimes I wonder if I've learned anything at all. I have been paying here and there and still just cant get out of the hole. I go the bank tomorrow and I can only pray to HIGH HEAVEN that I can get this loan and be done with all of it.

Where do I begin?

It seems that we have finally settled in, how do I know this for sure? I threw out our last box.... I really never knew just how much (JUNK) one could have. The girls are in their comfort zone now (clothes on the floor). Jim & Angie came in last week end and took done a pine tree that was in the back yard taking up all my space. life has seemed to slowed down so I will now be able to keep up with my writing.

We moved (for the last time)

IM very ashamed that I haven't not been on my blog in so long, but I have been very busy. We moved into our last home on New Years Day. What a way to start the new year off. We now have a 4 bedroom home that we all just love. I can finally say that I am done with moving. We are leasing for 6 months then I will purchase the home for our family. I will start catching up as we seattle in more.

His wonderful Art Work

Watching the sun rise is such a wonderful surprise, colors of oranges and pinks makes you just wanna sit back and think.
What a wonderful God we have to paint us a beautiful portrait without any ink, Winter,Spring, Summer and Fall he creates a masterpiece for all to enjoy.
You can feel his love with every stroke from the clouds to the sun his work is never done, He is always creating life in one form to another all we have to do is open our eyes and see his wonder.
As the day goes on the sun goes down he will paint in his moon and stars. As he cleans his brush for another day he also washes are our sins away.
Alls we have to do is believe in him and walk with him and be apart of him.
By S.Bonter

HEE HAW

I seen these dogs and had to laugh, how funny. Which we need a little of that about now. Family has been having some issues that is trying out our faith and our family love. We will hold together and get through this with GOD and our LOVE for one another.

When one door closes it opens another, when you put your hand in mine we can do anything together, when I walk in his steps his strength is my reassurance that all is good through his grace.

Another Day

The grass is still wet from the evening night.
The flowers are awakening and stretching for the morning light.
As the day goes on and sun begins to warm a new day has been born.
Birds begin to sing as yet another day begins.
Kids are out having fun- Running, skipping leaving out no one.
Climbing trees to their tops- laughing, playing and rolling in the grass
with day dreams that summer would last.

Once again evening appears and darkness begins to fall, fireflies begin to appear taking flight, stretching their wings and lighting up the night. Crickets begin to sing to one another, an evening breeze bring close to yet another. Good night I say looking unto the moon wondering what tomorrow will bring me.......This time I just might sleep til noon
By Sandy Bonter

All test Negative

Today Jeni and Randy got the best news ever, Kyle tested negative for everything and he is healthy, JOY and PRAISE the LORD. He is getting big and I still have no pics (sorry). Me and Amanda go back to the doctor tomorrow, she is going to have her lungs tested as well. Alls I can do is PRAY that she will be fine. She is also having her blood sugar tested. So tomorrow will be a long day.

A little common sense

Well I learned the hard way not say certain things on blogs, lets just say the hard way and I am very embarrassed. So a little common sense is a good thing, in my case (ALOT OF COMMON SENSE) is appreciated. I have a habit of speaking my mind and this time I feel that I not only crossed the line but I embarrassed someone I hold very dear to my heart, I wont mention names but she knows what I mean by all this. So on that note I will start thinking before I start pecking away on my keyboard and get my head bit off.

My new Nephew

Kyle was born June 13, 2006 a healthy little boy (ofcourse another boy). I was not able to be there because I am now on sleeping medication so I was not able to drive @ 1am to the hospital. How ever my mother went and actually watch him being born. I went up as soon as I gotten out of work the next day, He was in ICU for awhile so I got to go in and hold him there. He is so sweet and cute.
I was informed a couple days ago that the Dr. Called Randy and Jenny and told them that they need to bring him in the doctors because a test came back positive for Congenital Adrenal Hyperplasia. I really cant explain what it is but if you look it up on the internet you can read more about it. He is suppose to go the doctor today and we will know more.
Randy's clan seems to be getting bigger and bigger: Aaron,Matt,Tiffany,Dakota,Hunter,Chase and now our new baby Kyle..... Do I need to day anymore? Didn't think so. I cant image have that many children (WOW)
Well as long as they are happy and health that's all that matters. I love them all. I will get a picture of all them and post as soon as I can

Summers here and I have stepped out

God I love summer, I cant seem to get enough of the sun. I love everything about including the storms. Now there is nothing better then a hot summer night with a Thunder Storm. What is it about it that literally makes me smile? Because I do know how dangerous they can be.. I don't know maybe its the lightening and the rumble of the earth after it strikes, you feel it in your bones, or maybe IM just weird.....(now that's a thought) LOL
What a wonderful gift God has given to us and we take it for advantage everyday, An earth that has so much beauty and I will probably never see it all. Where would you go if had the means to go anywhere? I myself would love to go to Australia I want to see the kangaroos, then I would want to go to the rainforest to see all the wonderful plants and flowers that God gave to us, there is so many places that I would love to see but I know that is impossible so alls I have left is dreams.

What is COPD?

It is Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disease that is what my mother has along with emphysema because she has smoked since she was 16 years old. She also has problems with her heart now on top of all that but that is not why IM writing today. Friday I went to the Doctor and I was given some bad news. I now have COPD and the beginning stages of emphysema, No I never smoked in my life. It is caused from second hand smoke, Yup you heard right second hand smoke. I go to a specialist in a couple weeks and they will look at my lungs further. I now have my 1st inhaler (yuk) didn't quite work the way as I thought.

As I went on the internet to read more about this disease I found out it is the 4th killer of Americans in the world. All this because of smokers, IM glad I went to the Dr. And I am now being treated. Take the time and make sure that you go to your yearly exams, it just might save your life I believe it may have just saved mine. Go the web and put in what is COPD?

She has left me behind

Today Samantha has left me behind, she has decided that we would get along better if she moved out and into her aunt Wendy's in Mason. It feel like my heart is being squeezed to death, I cant stand the thought of her living away from me. She is so hard to get along with, which is all my fault I brought her up as my equal and not as a daughter, I wasnt hard on her when she did things wrong and I didnt put my foot down when I should have, so now that she is older and I want to have some order in my life she has this leverage over me that why be a mom now...

When she was growing up I put too much thought in the fact that I was a single mother trying to raise a daughter that I treated her like a friend and leaned on her when I should have been mothering her. So here I am complaining that she is wanting to spread her wings and be away from me and her sister she is only 17 years old but she has a mind of an 20year old.

I only have myself to blame and plenty of time to try and make up for all the wrong that I did...
I miss you Sammy, I love you and Im sorry for not being the mother I should have been when you needed it the most.

Happy Birthday Samantha

Happy birthday my wonderful daughter, its not quit your birthday yet but I knew I would be too busy in the morning to blog. 17 yrs ago you came into this world, my precious gift, you gave me a hard time trying to get here but you made it and it hasnt been the same since. I cant even explain how I felt when I held you for the 1st time. This wonderful gift that God gave to me to care for, he must of felt that I was ready for this journey. Here you are this beautiful, young and smart lady all because he felt I could do it. We have had our hard times through the years but it has made us stronger and God doesn't put you in situations that you can not handle. If anything to remember from me is hold you head up high, be honest and love yourself and your family with all that you have inside and God will smile down upon you and help you along through life just as long as you ask him. I love you Samantha

I can see myself in those eyes

Ever wonder how 1 child looks just like you and another looks like the stork delivered them. When I look at Amanda I literally see myself, when I look at Samantha I wonder where did she get her looks from. Amanda is funny she is now wanting to look like Sam, even to the point of flipping her hair to side like sissy use to. I didn't grow up with my sister like these 2 are but I bet it would of been fun. I have Danielle, Saundra and Brooke- I wish I could have grown up around them I think it would of been great. I miss them and I love them as if we were always close. I feel odd being the oldest of all my siblings and yet know so little about them, its time to make some changes and get to know them and my brother David I have a whole another family that I need to know. I want my girls to love and take care of one another when I am gone, so I feel that I should set an example to them and get to know my family.

Mirror Mirror on the wall

When you look into a mirror are you looking at yourself in vain or just looking at an image? I know when I look into a mirror it seems as though I am looking at every flaw of myself, I see dark circles under my eyes (too much work) my hair starting to turn gray and freckles I see an old woman. When I look at this picture of Samantha I wonder if I was ever that pretty and did I even think I was. She is so pretty and full of life, she is ready to go to prom with a friend of hers. It took all day to get her ready. I did her hair and make-up and that was enough for me. She had a nice time with her date and was in the house by 12:00am (thank god). When I took this picture I thought that I would be cute to have a picture of her looking at herself then when it was developed I almost wanted to cry she is a beautiful young woman with her whole life ahead of her I hope some day she will be able to look back on this and see that she is as beautiful as I see her.

Today I shed my tears

Have you ever had one of those days that you just felt like crying, everything seems to get to you for no reason. Today must be my day I woke up feeling fine but out of no where I just felt like breaking down crying, I feel sad today. The clouds have been hanging around for almost a week now, every once in while the sun will try to shine through but it never seem to stay long. I think maybe my mind is trying to tell me something, that maybe I just need a good cleansing of the soul, let me cry for all the reasons that I cant explain, let me cry for Jesus who died for my sins, let me cry for his mother who not only lost her son but watched him die on the cross for other peoples sins, let me cry for myself that everytime that I may sin Jesus died to forgive me. I will weep today in his name "Jesus Christ our Lord"

Happy Mothers Day to all you MOM'S

What did you do today on Mothers day? Well I worked, came home cleaned the house made dinner and now here I am.....I dont need anybody to fret over me today, my little libbie bought me a dozen pink roses and Sam bought me a fern w/ big huges and kisses, that was all that I needed I dont need to be told 1 day of the year that I am appreciated, I know I am everytime I look at one of my girls. I called my mother and told her Happy Mothers Day and she sounded depressed. I gotten a gift and a card which I gave to her yesterday because I knew I had to work and I really wanted to just relax when I came home. Now I feel guilty for not dotting over her today or even inviting her over for dinner. We spend alot time together, almost every day and I just wanted to be alone with my girls today- Is that so bad? if not then why do I feel sad? My brothers have nothing to do with my mother and I feel like it is my responsibilty to take care of her and make sure that she is happy. Sometimes I fall short in that area and it really bothers me. We only have 1 life and 1 chance to get it right, but I am only 1 person and what is most important to me is my kids and making them as happy as they make me.

Still Reading

As I said in my previous post I am reading the Bible. Im half way through exodus, this may sound weird and some people could be easily offended by this but I read a lot of romance, fiction and suspense books and when I say this it will sound out of this world but oh my god the Bible is the best love story and suspense full book I have ever read and Im only in exodus. I am so excited everytime I pick it up because Im not only doing something I love to do but I am also reading GOD'S WORD'S and that to me is one of the most important things I have done in my life.
So if I have offended anyone I am sorry, but I will keep reading on